Far from settling down

People always ask "So when are you settling down?"

The real question is of course "Are you going to ever get married?"

I did. I got married like 17 weeks ago. And the irony is I am far far far from being "settled down".

First and foremost, we have no place of our own. We are still on a house-search, looking to see if there is any way we can get a flat from the open-market in this crazy time. Sellers are asking for ridiculous price of 50-80K above valuation. How would an average newlywed couple have some much cash in hand? Madness....so we are kind of looking around and not really thinking we gonna get anything now. One way is to wait for HDB to release new flats. But most of would take another 3-4 years for them to be completed. So, conclusion? No place of our own in the immediate near future. There goes my "settling down"....

Secondly, we are seconded to this region to help with the ministry there for an interim period of time. The new region is different from the two previous regions that I have been in. Also my third region in 6 months. I have been to half the church now! Beside adjusting to marriage life, I am also adjusting to a brand new region and working with a brand new group of people in the ministry. Sometimes I ask myself if I am crazy to accept this role. But for the sake of my better half, I think the move is good for him. He really needs to be mentored and pushed out of his comfort zone. So grit my teeth la. Also feel that this move is divinely orchestrated by God to help my MIL be less clingy to his son. So again, these goes my "settling down"....

Thirdly, our current rented place will soon be a thing of the past. Our landlady has sold her place recently. We will have to move out of the S flat by end January. Like the saying goes "All good times have to come to an end". Honestly, I cannot gripe about this. Cos this place that we have been staying has been a miraculous provision of God. We are paying only $400 for the use of the whole flat! Also, we get all the privacy we need cos the landlady comes back only in the weekend when we are back in H. So now, after thinking and pondering, after many considerations and re-considerations, I have proposed to my husband that we move back to stay with his mom in H. Am I crazy? Maybe I will be crazy after I move back. Well....My rationale. One, we can save the rental money. Two...I believe we need some sort of a trial period to see if his mom is really live-able with. W is stuck with his mom. None of his siblings are able to take her into their home. My theory is if we can't even live together now in H, then she will not be live-able with in our place in future. This is to give all of us an opportunity to try to live together. Cos by the time she move into our place, we are stuck! So again....another adjustment. There goes my "settling down"....

Fourthly (you are probably regreting reading this entry now cos I am writing an epistle! Hahaha), if God is willing, we are planning for a kid next year. No...we are not keeping a goat. A real baby!! I know it's a little fast but my biological clock cannot wait la. I'll be 34 next year. Sigh....sigh. So you think I am ever going to be "settling down"???

So next time people ask if you are going to settle down? You know how to refute them now.

Reflective mode

"You are one of the most patient person I have seen"

Instead of being flattered by these words, I pondered for a long time after putting down the phone. I used to think I am patient. But lately, I doubted. Cos I find myself losing my cool so many time times when i deal with people and my loved ones. Outwardly, I may look nice and cool but deep inside, I wish I can scold them upside down. Even lately, when I was praying for myself that I would cultivate all the 9 fruit of the HS. I happily skipped praying for patience cos I dun want to be tested in this area. Someone said, "Don't pray for patience unless you are ready to be tested!". I'm not ready cos I know I won't make it. Hahaha....

Had some of the youth over for dinner on Monday night. It was quite fun. I cooked chicken curry, stir fried beef & broccoli and sambal kang kong. We ate and yakked abit and watched the last episode of the 9pm mandarin drama. By the end of the day, after washing up and cleaning myself up, I was totally exhausted. Crawled into bed...zzzz

Headache

Headache....I'm having headache.

Probably due to sleeping late last night.

Maybe I'm getting weekend blues too. It would be so nice if there is only Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday in a week. I don't care for the weekend.

Sigh....sigh....sigh again!

What do I know?

I can never fall asleep on my job.
Because it's so interesting.
There is always new stuff that I will be doing...stuff that I have never done before or dream myself ever doing them.

For now, it's a jamming studio.
I need to get a jamming studio up running by end of November.
You know, for me, setting up a home dvd player with surround sound system is already a big achievement for me. Let alone a jamming studio. Ha!

BUT the good thing about my role is I can get the expertise of others, the youth!
Actually I realise I like to kick off new things! I like to start new projects.
There is always electrifying adrenaline pumping and excitement when I do these.
I just hate to follow up and chase people all over.

Jamming studio...what do I know about jamming studio? Ha...